Stay Beautiful xoxo: Gonna regret this one...

Last week was kind of a blur. Do you find yourself missing out on days because you're so busy. I've never thought about it before but seeing as Christmas seems to be passing me by I'm feeling sad that there are days where I dont get any down time. Instead it's all go go go. Take last week for instance. We had the "Fishmas Christmas" Christmas party. People showed up and had a great time- filled with wonderful food, gingerbread house competetions, slideshow, karaoke, Santa, Grinch and the Elves even made an appearence. However I'm not gonna lie it was hard for me to enjoy. This past week I not only was sick and yet stilll working ( hell on earth I tell ya ) but I was also trying to get everything prepared. Running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. I know I have commitee. And they are wonderful and helpful to the fullest. Sadly I'm the type of person who always feels guilty when asking for help, and when I'm offered it, I cant accept it. Gah. Kill me now. It's something I need to get over and start taking people up on all the help I can get. Thankfully some people did come and help out and I wish I could express to them over and over again how much it helped me. They were wonderful.
Anyways, while at the party I was so concerned about being the perfect "hostest" that I didn't even get to eat more than 6 bites of my meal. I was always checking to see that eveything was running smoothly. Yet as I sit here and write about it, I am thankful it went so well. Even more thankful that it's over.

Here is the kicker of the week: Dating.

Being a 24 year old single mormon girl is tough. I know people will sit there and say "O but you're so young, you'll find someone one day, he's out there blah blah blah" I don't care. It still sucks. Nothing worse than watching an 18, 19 or 20 year old meet and marry someone to make you feel like you're being passed over like yesterdays news. Lets begin shall we. Why is it so dang easy for me to get a non mormon guy but not the one you dream of marrying when you're that 12 year old just entering young womens. I know this may sound weird but the number of dates with mormon guys this past yeat : 3. Number of dates with the non mormon guys : 6. Wow even just writing those numbers down makes me feel sad. 9 dates, 9 nights out of a whole year was spent with a guy who was slightly interested in me. Even if it was just for an evening. I'm just tired of waiting. I'm tired of stupid boys. I'm tired of not feeling special to someone. I'm a freaking catch. Not wanting to sound big headed. conceited or anything like that but I know I have something to offer. I guess I'm just tired of playing the wating game. Even more tired of feeling like crap because it's almost like I need a guy to validate who I am. Bahhh. Saddest part is, I KNOW I'm not the only one who feels this way. My advise to the guys ( if any are even reading this, if you are and havent clicked away yet thinking I'm a crazy person, fist pound right there!!) Be a man, grow a pair and start asking girls out. Stop making us cry. Stop making us feel worthless. On another note- just cuz I'm not married yet-please people who are, I'm sick and tired of the whole you trying to give relationship advise, making me feel inferior because I'm not married with the condesending way you talk to me. It's getting annoying. If I want your opinions and such- I'll ask. Chances are I won't.

Wow even as I read over it I sense how harsh I'm sounding, but this is my blog and I can say what I feel.

In other news. It's official. I'm working EFY Calgary Canada 2013!!!!!! I am very excited and Scott Navratil will be my Co-Coordinator. I have worked with him a few times and really look forward to working with him this summer. It's going to be so much fun and the work begins for it now!!!

Here are some photos of my past week. Me and my girls did our Christmas gift exchange which was a blast- I always treasure the moments we get together. Went out with my two sisters also for food and dancing with is always a good time. Also, got to sing in the Christmas Concert with the Institute Choir- lots of fun and a hilarious video of me and my friend Lucas joking around pretending to be opera singers.

Hope you all have a good week and can forgive me for my rants haha